You have great courage. You may not realize it, but you do. It takes much courage to get through life, to face up to health issues, financial pressures, loss of loved ones, child raising, relationships, and a culture that increasingly values all the wrong things.
You know the difference between right and wrong, and more often than not, you choose to do the right things. You see the big picture, the reason for your existence, the true purpose for your life. And to the best of your ability, you strive to accomplish it. You accept your mortality, knowing that if you have run your race properly, the eternal future is even better. That requires trust, and courage.
Your journey will likely get even more challenging as you age. Do not fear. The courage of your convictions will get you through it. You are not alone.